We had the first picnic for CMA (Christian Medical Association) tonight. The main presentation was by a doctor who is teaching our physiology course. He said something that I wanted to write... before I return to hitting (why does that sound so violent?) the books. Dr. Stephenson mentioned that we would be feeling the rollercoaster of emotions as we face our fears in medical school. One minute it's excitement, the next it's bewilderment, etc... and he's pretty much right. Then he went on to say that while we FEEL like somehow we tricked the admissions committee into accepting us... there's no tricking God. It sunk in at that moment, at many moments when I doubt myself - that this is exactly where God wants me to be. He has purposed me, planned me, even pulled me to this place. While I struggle with feeling adequate at times - He knows all and has placed in me all the tools I need to complete His task. Likewise as I anticipate Katie Middlestead's (my undergraduate mentor and the former associate director for Spartan Christian Fellowship) big venture to the Philippines on Monday (for 3 years!!) I am excited because I know that God is drawing her to where she can be used most for His Kingdom. While it's an adjustment to finally BE in medical school where I am being challenged and stretched, and while it'll be another adjustment to see Katie leave to BE in the Philippines for 3 years - I KNOW that we are where HE would have us. Like Dr. Stephenson said, letting go of your life = letting God work.
